This was a bad moment at the doctor’s office today. The doctor recently started having an oxygen tank at her office because I told her it would be a good idea. You know, just in case. Well, today was that just in case moment when my tubing snapped off as K was switching my tanks. We were all panicking until K remembered the recently acquired office oxygen tank (with cannula!) kept tucked away for emergencies. I had to hold my broken tubing onto my second full tank to try and get enough oxygen until they found another cannula. Thankfully, K moves fast and keeps a level head in a crisis. All I was in charge of was concentrating on breathing calmly until rescued. We have spare tubing in my van but that was in the parking lot 7 floors below. It would’ve taken too long to get it.
Life has a funky way of reminding me how fragile my body is but I can’t live in fear and never go anywhere. Lately, I’ve become a homebody because my breathing has gotten worse. I have to get myself out of the house more and I’m going I’m going to accept this challenge head on. Well, as soon as K fills my gas tank. I’ve decided that’s a “man’s job.” Honestly, I can’t handle the gas fumes. So, I have K fill my van for me.
What about you? Have you had some oxygen emergencies? Share your story in the comment section. Love y’all!
A tragic accident happened yesterday. *sniff* *gulp* I was hot-footing after K in Lowe’s last night, reminding him to please slow down. You see, even after all this time together with each other, he will sometimes forget that I’m slower than he is. “What?!?” You ask. I know, I know. I’m stunned by that revelation myself but it’s true.
K “needed” more garden supplies. I swear for a man who originally didn’t want a yard when we were house shopping years ago, he sure has taken up gardening as if it’s a lifeline. Honestly, it can be and has been. Even though it’s a lot of work, there’s a lot of joy and even a bit of escapism to it. He’s made our yard it our little project that is never finished and that’s ok because we love every change we bring to it each year.
Now, back to Lowe’s. Right. Where was I? Ok I remember. “Slow down,” and he turns around to look back at me while turning the cart filled with bags of dirt. “K, I’m not made for this speed anymore.” I smiled at him and that’s when my life goes into slow motion. I see K about to say something and then I caught something flying out of the corner of my eye.
Have you ever experienced something happening that you knew wasn’t right but you weren’t in the position to stop it from happening? Well, that was K and I. I was too far away and K was still looking at me when the dirt shifted in the cart that he was still pushing around a corner. There wasn’t a darn thing we could do. My portable liquid oxygen tank got squeezed out of the cart’s seat and flew out and smacked the concrete floor. The plastic casing came wide open and top was tilted out way wrong. Oh crude buckets! I gently picked it up, trying to squeeze it back together, when my mind was wondering if these things blowup. Apparently not this time. However, K’s first thought was, “Is it still flowing oxygen?” Isn’t he so sweet???
Miraculously, the darn thing was still working but I asked him what her would do if it didn’t. He said, “We’d figure it out. We always do.” What a guy, right? It wasn’t until we got back to home that we tossed around some ideas of what to do in that scenario. It’s always good to have a plan in place for such things because I can not be without oxygen for very long before I start to suffer badly and that’s if I’m just sitting somewhere without talking or moving to conserve my body’s oxygen supply.
When we got home we discussed what we could have done if my portable had stopped working. I’m a little nervous to tell my oxygen provider that my portable is broken. But hey, these things happen, right? A lesson has been learned here for us. We will never forget to strap in my portable tank using the child safety belt in the shopping cart. I mean, we took the time to connect it through my purse strap but didn’t do it this time for my portable.
Oh the joys of hospital gowns. I never have been given a gown that actually fits. They’re sizes range from Large to Extra Large. Yeah, I asked. A lot of times I can just wrap the gown around my front, back and then to front again to tie it. However, the gown I got today was the kind that had short ties. So no wrap-around action for me and of course the opening had to be in front. What a fashion statement I made today!
Today’s appointment was with my cardiologist who I’ve seen for the past 20+ years. He’s AWESOME! He always asks me how I’m doing, what I’ve been up to, and if I’m still doing whatever it was that I was doing the last time I saw him which was a year ago. After all the pleasantries were out of the way, we started in with my questions. First I asked him what he has diagnosed my cardiac problems to be. His answer was, “Which one?” Haha! We laughed. Nothing with my health problems is ever easy or simple. In fact, my body is very complex. One organ’s problems affects another organ’s problems and etc.. It’s very frustrating because my body doesn’t want to do what doctors seem to think it should do. I think there’s a Murphy’s Law for that somewhere.
My Cardiologist told me that I have Supraventricular Arrythmias as well as Ventricular Arrythmias and when I first went to see him 20+ years ago, I had premature ventricular contractions really badly. Thus, the reason why I’m on Cordarone because it was the only medicine at the time that didn’t cripple my breathing ability. Now that we got that straightened out, I told him what the Cardiac Electrophysiologist (maybe I got that backwards) that my Cardiologist sent me to suggested Tikosyn for my heart problems. You see, I was looking for a replacement for Cordarone. Being on Cordarone is not a very safe thing for my body. It can lead to Thyroid problems as well as scarring of the lungs which is called Pulmonary Fibrosis. Tikosyn is used for both A-fib and my problems. However, after reading about Tikosyn, I felt the risks of taking Tikosyn for my actual cardiac problems were too high to make me comfortable to trying it. Beside, you have to stay in the hospital for 3 days to start Tikosyn. So, my Cardiologist and I are in agreement for me to stay on Cordarone, since I have yet to have any problems relating to Cordarone in 20 years.
Now wait a minute, you say. Don’t the PH doctors think this current thyroid problem that I currently have occurred because of Cordarone? Funny that you asked that because I brought this up with my Cardiologist. I explained what happened when I tried Opsumit for 3 months last year which ended with me being hospitalized for 3 days. I told him how I was diagnosed with Hyperthyroid and that the PH doctors were saying it was only because of me taking Cordarone. They wanted me off of it. I told my Cardiologist the status of my thyroid now that I’m slowly decreasing the thyroid medicine I’m taking. His thoughts are that it could’ve been Opsumit interacting with the Cordarone. It wasn’t technically Cordarone giving me thyroid problems, it could be that Opsumit in conjunction with Cordarone, triggered a thyroid problem in me. It actually makes sense to me!
According to the ECHO I did today, my heart looks good, pressures ok, blood flow is good. Then there is the not-so-good news. My aorta. For some mysterious reason, my aorta measured at 5.1cm. I don’t have high blood pressure. So who knows why this is occurring. Now I have to go get a CT Scan to more accurately measure my ascending aorta. My Cardiologist says that if it gets to 5.5cm, he will want me to go to the hospital where my PH doctors are so that I can get medical intervention. Sounds like some sort of surgery to me. *pout* He said that there are ways to not have to cut me open to put in a stint. I’m not sure if that’s makes me feel more reassured or not. Either way, it’s gonna hurt somehow. haha! I shouldn’t put the cart before the mule, so to speak. Why worry over it too much. I’ll wait to see what the CT Scan says first.
I’m just a little disgusted with not getting a clean bill of health with my heart today. It’s always hard for me when new things pop up unexpectedly with my health. It takes me a couple of days to accept the news and to begin to move forward again. I did show him a copy of my heart cath that I had last December. He thought it looked great! Hooray! Sometimes I feel like my PH doctors are all about doom and gloom. It’s nice to get a little optimism from my cardiologist!
We may not have the same medical condition but we have breathing problems. It’s why I blog… like the Avengers… When we stand together, we bolster each other to keep us strong. To encourage each other to move forward and FIGHT the battle that our breathing problems bring us. We are individuals but put together we are our strength and our encouragement.
I just watched the movie The Avengers and it really got to me. We each have our own strengths and our own weaknesses. We don’t have to be someone who is able to be strong in all areas of our lives. That’s the great thing about having the support from other people who have breathing problems. They can relate and they can listen to our concerns, our fears, and our own accomplishments.